So there was a pencil alright? This pencil was very small and very obscure when it came to delineation... indistinct. So this pencil appeared emotionless for vast periods of time, only opening up emotionally when it felt the need to. This occurrence was very rare. Very rare indeed. So this pencil liked to move around a lot, sleekly through streets and buildings without being detected by a single soul. The pencil had his fair share of friends, a clique emerged eventually after many-a-year it tried to form one. There was a sharpener, two staplers and a color pencil. With this clique, the pencil shared its deepest, darkest secrets. This clique did not judge it by its actions. They judged it by its willingness to be open to them and this they appreciated more than anything else in their minute, discreet world.
The pencil, the sharpener, the staplers and the color pencil enjoyed each others company very much. They used to do the silliest of things... silly being an understatement of course, but nonetheless a statement that I would like to think gives you a sufficiently clear image of the things they did. The pencil shared the most dear friendship with the color pencil. As time passed however, rifts began to form between the bonds of fellowship the clique had. In metaphorical terms, the sharpener became too sharp, the staplers stapled themselves away from the rest of the clique and the color pencil became too colorful.
Adolescence and hormones played a big deal too. Bad hormones. Bad, bad hormones. The clique lost its charm after a while. It never got back to the way it was. Departures too played a role in the subtle destruction of the clique. The pencil became deprived of company. It had no one to talk to, to have a heart-to-heart with. Eventually though, this deprivation seemed to fade away for reasons the pencil could not explain. Slowly, the pencil found new friends. These friends took a similar interest in to the pencil's thoughts and feelings much like it's previous clique. Thus, a new clique was born. To this day, this clique remains.
Years later, the pencil's life took a sinuous(complex) turn. The pencil crosses paths with the color pencil it befriended a long time ago. Something was different this time. The color pencil was both impeccable and infallible. To it, the color pencil comprised of all the colors in the spectrum of colors. A delicate beauty. Suddenly, the color pencil was all it could think about. The pencil contemplated keeping an imperceptible watch on the color pencil. Creepy as that seemed, the pencil did not alter its decision. Months later, the pencil gained enough courage to reveal its desire... its lasciviousness(I love this word) to the color pencil.
The pencil then came to realize that it was too late. The color pencil was taken. The color pencil had found comfort in the company of another old friend... one of the staplers. Whatever charm the color pencil seemed to have on the pencil was pointless now. Whatever dreams the pencil had of the color pencil disappeared faster than the speed of light. The pencil was crippled internally. All its hard work was for nothing... an inconspicuous nothing. The pencil contemplated moving on. That hasn't worked out very well, last I checked.
The pencil knew that things would never go back to how they originally were. The first clique it had was much more meaningful to it than its current clique. There was just something about the first clique that had a lasting effect on the pencil. The sharpener, the two staplers and the color pencil. They were the pencil's worst enemies... best friends. Nothing would change that. On the other hand, that sense of fellowship no longer existed. So how were they best friends? It was unexplainable, really. They each willingly accepted that fact.
; have an amazing friend named Deepak Sidhu. ; 've lost all hope for everything I've had hope in. ; am not sleeping till I'm done with half of Twilight. (thanks Keshen) ; am so messed up emotionally. This coming from me is big. Should I fake an 'lol' to make this seem a little better? Lol.
The List 1. Get a new do done for my hair. This long curly/wavy hair of mine is unmanageable. 2. Hang out with Wen Jun and Sartah MORE than once. 3. Pass Aida the entire Skins series somehow. 3. Get Chulan to come over to my place to watch The Emperor's Club, Armageddon and Into The Wild. ( in no specific order ) Hopefully Chittesh and Narinder join this movie watching as well. 4. Meet up with Divya 5. Meet up with Dhivia, Varun and Keshen (not necessarily but most probably together) 6. Become a table tennis pro (this is kind of extreme) (I just meant get better at the game) 7. Paintball. 8. Camp. 9. Reach Level 50 in the Kingdom of Loathing. 10. Spend a ridiculous amount of time at Mahisha's place 11. Complete my undang test. 12. Get a part-time job somewhere in Queensbay Mall. (decided against it) 13. If in KL, meet up with my wife, Ashereen and our seven kids. 14. Try, just TRY to attend the Combined Training Camp. 15. Hang with the gang. (Chittesh,Paalan, Jerome) 16. This is probably the most important. I NEED TO HANG WITH HANEESHA WHOM WHICH I HAVE NOT CHILLED WITH FOR A LONG TIME :D ( I love you Haneeeeeeeee :D ) (/whoo) Remember the music video and the spongebob dancing and everything :D
My friend Mahisha's has been admitted into Gleneagles for a knee operation. Here's to hoping that you won't jump around again and dislocate/break anything again. Oh and enjoy yourself in the hospital. Hope you have a safe operation thing. Anaesthesiaaaaaa :D:D:D:D I've always wanted to be put under anaethesia. Imagine just falling asleep and the next thing you know it's 2 or 3 days later :D I have decided that i must try it some time. Have a nice long sleep! Sounds so gooood.
But anyways, take care Maish. You'll be close to helpless with that stupid brace thing again so I can push you and you won't find it easy getting up :D
I'm watching Twilight on the 27th. I would very much like it if I could go for this with the company of Jerome, Chittesh, Narinder and Paalan. I'll call you girls tomorrow but if you see this first, please call me. We've not lepaked since school ended. We've got to!
The List 1. Get a new do done for my hair. This long curly/wavy hair of mine is unmanageable. 2. Hang out with Wen Jun and Sartah MORE than once. 3. Pass Aida the entire Skins series somehow. 3. Get Chulan to come over to my place to watch The Emperor's Club, Armageddon and Into The Wild. ( in no specific order ) Hopefully Chittesh and Narinder join this movie watching as well. 4. Meet up with Divya 5. Meet up with Dhivia, Varun and Keshen (not necessarily but most probably together) 6. Become a table tennis pro (this is kind of extreme) (I just meant get better at the game) 7. Paintball. 8. Camp. 9. Reach Level 50 in the Kingdom of Loathing. 10. Spend a ridiculous amount of time at Mahisha's place 11. Complete my undang test. 12. Get a part-time job somewhere in Queensbay Mall. (decided against it) 13. If in KL, meet up with my wife, Ashereen and our seven kids. 14. Try, just TRY to attend the Combined Training Camp. 15. Hang with the gang. (Chittesh,Paalan, Jerome) This was right at the bottom because this will most likely be the first thing I'll get done.
I've got so much left to do. Looking forward to it.
Today was good.
I'm contemplating cutting my hair at a salon from now on. The way this metro dude washes your hair for you and massages your head at the same time and everything is almost orgasmic. (I didn't understand Chittesh when he first told me, now I do.)
Divya faced two challenges, or rather faced two challenges but decided not to go through with one of them : a) the enormous task of crossing the apparently bottomless contraption of doom, commonly known as a monsoon drain. (or a mini monsoon drain) (whatever lah small drain) b) Using escalators to go DOWN a few levels. ( Yeah she didn't do this. ) What was it again? Escalaphobia?
Chittesh was fashionably late AGAIN. Oh speaking of Chittesh, I'd like to thank him for coaxing me into finally doing my hair. He inspired me. And he sat by me the entire time my hair was being cut. Such a good friend :D
Chittesh and Divya met my house (there is nothing wrong with that sentence). They met Jessica. They met Rohan (who loves them I guess since he didn't growl at them like he normally does to strangers.) Chittesh likes my maid's name, Letitia (Le-tee-sha) (aka'd as Letty). And he likes my masks ooooh. Divya looks (I'm not sure how this quite works) good with my Darth Vader helmet on. Chittesh looks ummmmk with my halloween mask thing on. We so need to do a sleepover thing lah. It'd be awesomememememememememememeememamomumi.
In other news, my mum's Bacardi bottle is empty :O Who Killed Roger Rabbit?
I've never actually watched that movie. Can someone who has tell me whether we find out who does indeed kill Roger Rabbit?
This is for one person and one person alone. I know this person relatively well and I'm sure she wouldn't want her identity revealed so I shall thence not reveal it.
Well you, it's been five whole months! Amazingzing right? You've successfully avoided me for 5 months. Anyways I didn't make this post just to gloat about that. I've actually decided to give you a little advice.
Once upon a time you used to open up to me and I was glad to help yet for stupid reasons (AGAIN) we stopped talking. You once told me :
"Nothing..i pretend that nothing is wrong...but i am sick of pretending...i think all this while i have been pretending to be somebody i am not just to fit in with them...right now i just want to be ME...but its obvious that they hate the real me too... I mean i am human too... i have feelings too...i laugh,cry,eat,sleep too...so why am i so different from them?"
Firstly, your "pretending" makes you the person you are. I've monitored you somewhat this past 5 months and I'm pretty sure you haven't changed. You say that you're sick of pretending. If you're sick of pretending then just stop pretending. But then again, a highly complicated individual such as yourself can't stop pretending. This pretending gives you character . Without it you'd be nothing.
Secondly, you do it just to fit with them because you can't get friends any other way. If you were the typical girl with typical hobbies and shit you wouldn't be where you are now. Your pretending seems to have paid off hasn't it? You're a "model" now and you've landed yourself in tons of photo shoots. You live a healthy social bitch life in SGGS. You have a lot of friends (sure?). Yet you don't have something the non-pretenders have, the truth because the fact of the matter is, you are a bitch and people bitch about you. Nobody tells you anything of course because that's just the way they roll. I've heard some bitching about you myself and from people in that little clique of yours. My lips are sealed on the matter of course but I just thought I'd let you know. Anyways, lets face it. You can either a) live like this and keep pretending for years to come and probably survive or b) just leave this behind before the gates come crashing down on that fragile, delicate little face of yours. Might I suggest the latter? Why else do you think you need to fit in with them and not vice-versa?
Thirdly, if you just want to be YOU, then just go ahead with it. I have seen you for who YOU are and frankly you aren't half bad a person to talk to and share things with. But as long as you keep living in that little shadow of yours nothings going to change. Trust me.
Finally, why ARE you so different from them? Good question. A few facts: they don't pay to have their pictures in magazines, they aren't as sensitive as you, they don't not stop talking to someone because of a lack of credit, they don't dress like skanks and they sure as hell don't badmouth about their friends to the extent that you do. Surely you know what I'm talking about?
You recognize your flaws yet you don't do a thing to correct them.
In some ways I feel so sorry for you and in other ways I can't wait to see you come crashing down. Don't get me wrong, you can be amazing when you want to be. It's just a pity that your bitchiness completely overshadows that little bit of zest you have in you.
Holidays have been good so far. I've done a couple of things on the list. Good progress so far I guess. Chittesh you imbecile you're supposed to have called right after IT happened >:( Nothing of significant importance to update you guys on. I just made this post for you guys to watch the HBP trailer up there. Watch it now!!!!!
It's that time of year again. School's coming to a close for about a month and a half. It's really very sad :(
Now that the exams are over school is boring as hell but there was a time today when it was only myself and Joshua in my classroom. I looked around and saw how the tables were arranged and how the class was so dirty. It was right then when I recalled how things used to be not too long ago. In fact, even a month ago, classes would be going on as usual. Nobody would want teachers to come to class, but they did and more importantly, they actually TAUGHT us. I remembered how everyone actually sat at their places and had exercise books on their desks and teachers would ask us questions and then there would be the occasional interruption by Bob and Syed. This is kind of a personal rant to everyone else so if you don't quite understand, I'm sorry. On the other hand, I'm sure my fellow 4 Dinamik classmates will be able to relate.
Moving on, I remembered how Pn. Nirmala (my form teacher) would NEVER smile and NEVER really talk about anything other than BM and school things. I personally think it was just a test for herself. I say this because at this point I can just go up to her and she'll try her best to engage in conversation. In fact, it actually worked earlier today. We had a 3-4 minute conversation. This may not seem like a long time, but with Pn. Nirmala, trust me, it was an accomplishment. I'm scared that now school's ending, she'll go back to Robot Nirmala again. She doesn't teach Form 5s which makes this situation even more depressing. No more acknowledgement from Normal Nirmala. Sigh.
Still sitting in the classroom, I also remembered how my ex-(apparent)best friend and I had a fight that has probably taken a higher toll on me than him. Right, Navnith? I'll never know. Anyways, it's been 11 months? Fuck. Well if you ever read this, I'm just glad we're talking to each other again. That's all. I'm sick of saying sorry. And so pretty much all that I've just stated, among other unimportant, minute things came rushing into my head at one go.
So, as cliched as this may sound after the end of every year, I will really miss this schooling year. To name a few things, how can I forget Sukantara, all the sports practices, Sports Day, MAD bitches!, joining the Editorial Board of PFS, every Biology, Physics and Chemistry period in the labs, random moments of utter hilarity by some of the teachers (more to Samad than anyone else) (add math teacher), ditching class and hanging out at the pond a few weeks before finals started and of course right now... the time I'm spending in school at this time.. this week.
Did my finals end just this previous Tuesday? It really seems like a long while back. Being in the last week of the school year does these things to me. It always has. Every year. This time it's affected me more for some reason. One difference between this year and the years before is that many of these joyous moments have been captured by cameras. Be it Paalan's, Chittesh's, mine or even the Ed Board's, I have a lot of pictures and videos that I can look back at and enjoy and laugh at. Pictures and videos are my only comforts that I can resort to when I feel like this. "God" bless cameras.
Form 4... the "honeymoon year". I for one truly believe that when your parents and uncles and aunts say that Form 4 is a honeymoon year, they refer to the year-end holidays. Because I can't say that I've had a honeymoon year. Though I definitely have had it easier than some friends of mine, I never really had that sense of freedom to do whatever I want.. until now. I can't even consider the mid-year break as fun coming to think of it. Now... it's the absence of something to do that's killing me. As you probably know after reading the below post, I've made a to-do list. My list hasn't grown any longer than what it was at a couple of days ago. I believe that adding to that list down there would only make it more improbable to complete than it already is.
So tomorrow is the last day of school. I hope to take loads of pictures... especially with people I won't be seeing as often as I'd like to anymore. (Yes Robert, you too.)
Oh and I'd like to take this opportunity to thank everyone in 4 Dinamik, the MAD, the Editorial Board, everyone and everything else that's made this year one to remember. To the younger brothers of Paalan, Narinder, Jerome and Jeong Mark, prepare for a year of torment. (If you make it to PFS that is) BadGood luck with that.
This is so saddddd. I've finished my school year recap.
Peng Chew is a bitch. Now more than ever. That Physics paper was so harddddd.
On a lighter note, my exams are over. This means that there will be regular updates on this blog, so keep checking back. Now that the exams are over, I've decided to formulate a list of things I would like to accomplish during this month and a half break I have. What are the chances of me actually accomplishing it? Close to none. Oh well.
The List 1. Get a new do done for my hair. This long curly/wavy hair of mine is unmanageable. 2. Hang out with Wen Jun and Sartah MORE than once. 3. Pass Aida the entire Skins series somehow. 3. Get Chulan to come over to my place to watch The Emperor's Club, Armageddon and Into The Wild. ( in no specific order ) Hopefully Chittesh and Narinder join this movie watching as well. 4. Meet up Partaaaayyyyy with Divya 5. Meet up with Dhivia, Varun and Keshen (not necessarily but most probably together) 6. Become a table tennis pro (this is kind of extreme) (I just meant get better at the game) 7. Paintball. 8. Camp. 9. Reach Level 50 in the Kingdom of Loathing. 10. Spend a ridiculous amount of time at Mahisha's place 11. Complete my undang test. 12. Get a part-time job somewhere in Queensbay Mall. 13. If in KL, meet up with my wife, Ashereen and our seven kids. 14. Try, just TRY to attend the Combined Training Camp. 15. Hang with the gang. (Chittesh,Paalan, Jerome) This was right at the bottom because this will most likely be the first thing I'll get done.
I'm still O-verwhelmed. Obama's acceptance speech was one of the most moving speeches I've seen and heard in my life thus far. If you haven't already watched this, here it is:
My examinations are almost over. Got a couple of Bio papers and History on Monday, and a couple of Physics and EST papers on Tuesday. It'll fly by. I'm sure of it.
Random frustration: Does anyone else feel pissed off that that sense of hype and anticipation we got from watching Manchester United and Arsenal vie for EPL (BPL) supremacy is gone? There used to be so much chatter in school the day before the match and everyone would be placing illegal bets, among other things. It's gone now. What's happened? Is it the fact that we've just stopped being excited or is it because the matches aren't like they used to be? When Arsenal lost the likes of Dennis Bergkamp, Patrick Vieira, Robert Pires, Sol Campbell, Lauren, and Thierry Henry all in such a short, abrupt manner, Arsenal lost their status as one of the Top Four. I really can say that to you now and mean it. Arsenal just aren't good enough to be in league with the likes of Manchester United, Chelsea and Liverpool. On the other hand.. Hull City... It's sad, really.
School today was a bore. No surprises there. However, it was after school when this boredom seemed to diminish slightly. After Navnith and Paalan left, Jerome, Narinder and I met Robert the Pedophile (aka'd as Chulan) sitting next to his latest victim. (Kidding lol) (or WAS I?) (dumdumdummmmmm) Yeah anyways, we talked and talked until we reached a point where I, Keshav, the ever so frequent wielder of a camera whipped out my.. umm camera. Then we decided to abuse Robert. Not literally because he was too powerful ;) So I bet you're dying to look at the pictures right?
Robert the Pedophile. (We'll have him no other way :] )
Remaja yang melibatkandiridalamgejalanegatifberpuncadaripadakeinginanuntukmemperkosadanmerababudak-budakkecil.
And in other news, Narinder and I decided to climb that tree in PFS that everyone from PFS climbs at least once in their life.
You have no idea how coincidental this is. The only people I'd like to address today can't be named. So figure out who you are by yourself. It isn't that hard.
Here's to:
You; for making me realize that we will make it some day and for making me being around you... intoxicating.
You; for being strong and coming to reason and realizing that people aren't who you always anticipate them to be.
You; for making my day today. Looking into your eyes and having a conversation with you again was the best thing that has happened to me in weeks.
You; for being my one source of entertainment throughout the week. Happy birthday :)
You; for speaking to me at a time when I needed to relieve stress and for making me conceive the fact that I am a supposed necrophiliac.
and
You; come on and take your place in the White House already. Yes, we can!
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