I love you.

How does one deal with the inevitability that is death?

cw...

I came back to Penang on the night of the 27th. I return to Kuala Lumpur today in around 6 hours. Family wedding reception thing.

Congratulations to my cousin Vidhya and Jayram :)

I personally believe Manchester United will lose to Arsenal tonight. I can't see United winning, at the least.
I'm saying 2-1 to Arsenal.

I miss you.

s16, stop fighting.

Overdue
since I've been busy.

Celebrated Dhivia's sweet sixteen which was nice.
The following are pictures you have already seen prior to this and have absolutely no need to be looked at again, but are nonetheless going to be looked at again:

Wait, before you look at them. Pop quiz. When was the last time I had a picture in a blog post?

We missed Chittesh and Luvenia.

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So my cousin is getting married on Wednesday = huge family gathering. I know that I've got trials really soon, but I can't miss this. PLUS, Marisha is coming down/up from England just for the wedding which is awesome because I've not seen her in 2 years, since my trip to Austria and Czech Republic. You can navigate to that blog post I made about a year back via the 'Previous Posts' on the left bar. Click 'reminiscences'. Anyways, yeah this wedding's going to be awesome, and SHORT (insya-Allah). Then again, it's an Indian wedding so my luck has probably already run out.

On the upside, I will be driving to Kuala Lumpur for the first time. That'll be an experience I suppose. On the downside, I will be driving with my mother next to me. I'll just cross my fingers and hope she falls asleep fast so she can't lecture me on my driving (WHICH IS VERY SAFE FYI).

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It has been sort of depressing as of late, hasn't it? No, I've not been depressed. It's just been generally depressing. Everyone, myself included (but not really) is studying. We're at that time of the year again. I have not talked to a very good friend in more than a month and she lives 20 minutes away from me. I have not seen my best friend in almost a week. I have not seen AIDA in god knows how long. I've not seen Haneesha in god knows how long-er. The full gang hasn't had a McD gathering in god knows h- you get the picture.

I dreamt about a day after SPM about 24 hours ago (btw it's already 3am). I remember Aida and Wen Jun in it. For some precarious reason, I was Wen Jun's boyfriend. I drove them to Feringhi and we chilled there the whole morning. Then, something happened and Wen Jun had to leave so I drove her home. I don't know what happened to Aida :| . Then I went to Queensbay and I ran into Paalan and Dharshini on a date. They said they were going out later at night and they invited me. So naturally, I called Luvenia, Narinder and Chittesh (WHO COULD DRIVE!). Then I forgot some stuff. Then I remember Chittesh and I drove to Sunset Bistro. We did things. And we all got drunk, except Luvenia. Because none of us was in a state that was capable of driving, Luvenia had to drive us home illegally. Best part is she drove my car and not Chittesh's :P Then it went blur again I don't know what happened and then I remember we were swimming in the sea. Woke up right after that. Wait, something is not right. ANYWAYS THE POINT IS AFTER SPM (and PMR) is going to be good, really good. We're all going to hang out. We're all going to chill. We're all going to have fun. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, no matter how badly you screw up your exams, no matter how fucked up life is, no matter how depressed you may feel. We exist. Together. As one. Ohmmmmmm. No matter how low things get, we'll always have each other. That's why they call it a fellowship. So please, don't be stressed out because of your exams. You fear for your future? The future is not all about results, privileges and wealth. Sure, it helps. But one way or another, you will live. And you have me, you have us. Live together, die alone. Live, and you will survive.

While we are on that topic, I would like my friends to stop fighting. You guys know me, I almost never say anything about all these fights we have among ourselves. I don't like talking. I don't like complaining about things. I'm not good at being sociable. Heck, I even have a T-shirt that says that.

The T-Shirt. You thought I was lying?

Both of you have got to realise we're leaving school in just over two months. And that will be it, NO MORE HIGH SCHOOL. We won't be able to make a fool of ourselves (in a sober state) anymore. Now is the time when you've got to ask yourself if it's all worth it? What's the point of fighting when in three months you may not see each other for a long time? When in three months time we won't have the liberty to goof around as much as we do now? Funny how that works right? Having less freedom to the certain things out of school than in. IS FIGHTING WORTH THAT POSSIBILITY?

And to you two, comments will be spared. I now understand how frustrating it is to have your closest friends being at each others necks. For a majority of the beginning of 2009 I spent time loathing a very good friend of mine. In fact, he didn't even invite me to his birthday party for no reason. So yes, we "fought" for pathetic reasons. In case you were wondering, everything is well between us now, we've forgiven each other (and pending babies...). I could never quite comprehend what my other friends meant when they said it was irritating and annoying. I get that now. I've not been forced to take a side as of yet though I fear that is an eventuality. You may ask me not to get involved. You should also realise that I am Keshav Indran, I am inglorious and I never give up when I want something. What I want more than anything right now is for you two to realise that we don't have much time left to enjoy ourselves. Stop being crude. Times are changing. So, whad'dya say? If this fails, you must realise that I will not choose a side and that I may lock you two in a room with each other and throw the key to its door away until you settle things (at which point I would need to use the DUPLICATE of the key I threw away to unlock the door).

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3.34 am now. I watched 17 Again today. It was watchable. For me to say that about a Zac Efron movie is like giving it a 5-star rating already. Plus, Michelle Trachtenberg was in it. That's a good enough reason to watch it already. Ha, I meant yesterday. I watched the movie yesterday.

I will be leaving for KL at pukul 1.oo PM. I probably won't have time to blog whilst I'm in KL. To be honest, I think this blog post is worth a week of posts. Anyways, I've done what I've needed to do and said the things I've needed to say. I better sleep since I'm driving to KL. According to Law 7A section 2 in the Undang-Undang book thingy, a driver should not drive when he or she is feeling tired or has suffered a lack of sleep. Fuck that.

Safe driver kononnya.

and to the pay-attentioners, the answer to the pop quiz question 'When was the last time I had a picture in a blog post?' is July 7th 2009. It was my dearrrrr dear friend's birthday.

byebye :)

Why I love haneesha khanum

Why I Love Haneesha Khanum

We're so random :) I give you the A-Z of Sex by Haneeshav. (I just came up with that)

A- Anal

B- Babi

C- Cock

D- Dick

E-Erection

F- Fanny
G- Gangbang

H-Horny

I-Interracial

J-Jailbait

K-Kinky

L-Lick

M-Masturbate

N-Nail

O-Orgy

P-Pussy

Q-Quickie

R-Rape

S-Spank

T-Tongue

U-Underaged

V-Vagina

W-Willy

X-XXX

Y- Yum-Yum

Z-Zoophilia

meow ;)

250.

WAKE UP

wowz0rs

Just watch. I don't think you can see the full video on my blog because part of it is being cut off. Just double click on the video itself and it'll open the YouTube page.

:)

vince ftw

I am clearly unaware of the most precious commodity that there is.

It's... time.

uh oh

So, I kinda might be in love with you... again.

What i have learned today. 1482009

What I have learned today:

1) When you hate someone, hate him/her to the fullest capacity for maximum pleasure.
2) When you love someone, you just do.
3) Leaving is never a good thing.
4) You are your own best friend. Or well, your imaginary friend is.
5) Trust no one, Mr. Mulder.
6) District 9 may be the best summer movie of this year. Now for someone to watch it with...
7) Game over =)

TAG 04... former or latter?

Lose a lover, or love a loser?
Lose a lover. I can't imagine loving another loser, apart from myself of course.

Never see again, or never speak again?
Never speak again. There's always a pen and paper, if it comes down to that.

Run 2 miles straight, or walk 8 miles?
Walk 8 miles. I have stamina, but not that much.

Go to the beach, or have a milkshake?
Go to the beach. There are probably milkshake stalls along the beach anyway.

Laugh when no one else is, or not laugh while everybody else is?
Laugh when no one else is. Screw y'all.

Drink 10 cans of soda at once, or never drink soda again?
Drink 10 cans of soda at once. Preferably orange soda. Is it true? mmhmmmm.

Have your pants ripped, or get thrown in a trash can?
Have my pants ripped. Ladies?

Work at McDonald's, or join the army?
If we're talking about the Malaysian army, then I'll pick McDonalds any day.

Kiss someone you don't like, or kiss someone who doesn't like you?
Kiss someone who doesn't like me. At least I won't be on the bad end of the deal.

Be an only child, or have 5 brothers?
3 younger, 2 older.

Be able to rewind time, or see the future?
Rewind time. There are loads of major mess ups I want to correct.

Be hated for who you are or, be loved for something you're not?
Be hated for who I am. Unless you think I'm Polish, then I'll choose the latter option.

Die the day after the best day of your life, or live to be 90 with everyday being 'okay'?
Die after the best day of my life. However, I'm not sure what that day would be like.

Go skydiving, or go scuba diving?
Skydiving, bitches!

Be loved by one person, or have 10 people who like you?
Be loved by one person. Always has been that way, hasn't it?

Have one absolutely amazing kiss, or have 40 okay kisses?
One. Absolutely. Amazing. Kiss.

Love and lose or, never love at all?
Never love at all. I don't love many people, and the prospect of losing the few that I do is... unimaginable.

i am sick.

I'm very sick. Don't panic. I feel like I'm very sick but I probably am not. Still, not nice to be sick when you've got SPM trials that has been pushed forward a week. Focus = 0

Tanya Krishnamani I forbid you to leave Penang on the 17th. (or any day, for that matter...)

Managed to download 300MB worth of The Swingle Singers a couple of days ago, been listening to it all day.

People are happy again, I'm happy too.

But still sick.

Dane Cook ftw!

Here's to 07

Here's to:

you; for that conversation ;)
you; for being in my life for 11 years
you; for almost everything quackmeow :P
you; for making this past month amazing
you; for allowing me to redeem myself
you; being so patient with me
you; for that apology

and

you; for 7 months

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Good hello everybody. How have I been? Fine, thank you :)

I've got lots of things on my mind. If you want to know, come ask me some time.

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PATRICE EVRA FOR THE WIN!

fail.

temporary rekindling.

Be yourself, because the people who mind don't matter and the people who matter don't mind.

=)

Miniatus.

DEAR READERS, I HAVE THINGS GOING ON AT A PLACE FOR A REASON.

BRB okay.